Figured I'd put something in. I haven't for a long time. This might turn into another rant or something... probably not. I need to try and work on other things.

Anyway. Health wise, I'm still shaky. Turns out, from what I've been keeping record of, I've got Mittelschmerz. So, three weeks out of a month, being a female has been sucking. Grand. But I just need a better diet. (So easy to do when you can barely get groceries. >_> )
What's been horrid lately has been anxiety. I've been getting what my mom had been going through last year. Heart palpitations (which comes chest tightness... and that's scary as fuck to be blatantly honest... ), shakes, stupid thoughts (and I mean things... you just... don't even wanna know. It's damn scary. You think things that.. you wouldn't normally think. Things seem ten.. twenty.. a hundred times worse than what they'd be when you normally think or feel things. ) ... shortness of breath, extreme fatigue and depression. Just... anything that goes with severe panic/anxiety attacks. It's been.. to be honest, hellish.

All the doors keep getting slammed in my mom's face as far as work is concerned. Things are so cut off for the both of us and nearly everything we try to do doesn't pass. Doors keep getting slammed. I'd like to find one that's.. yannow.. nice and unlocked soon.

... in any case. I absolutely HAVE to.. NEED to... get some art out. I need to get it on par.. get off my ass (when shit LETS me... ) ... and start making some money with it. In my absence, I've gotten better with quite a lot... though, I know I have nothing to show on dA for it. I sincerely apologize for neglecting this so horribly.

I know I'll come back one of these days, hopefully. Life has just been horrible and crazy these past... well... two years maybe? Yea. It needs to stop.

Maybe I'll get something up and out for Valentine's Day. Who knows. I don't like the "holiday"... but.. other people do. And there's some nice couples I like to work with now... so. Maybe.

Anyway... hope everyone is alright and good and stuff. Till.. whenever~